TIGblogs - ariel's TIGBlog http://ariel.tigblog.org/ What's on the minds of young leaders from around the globe? en-us youth is a state of mind http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/7206 how can you define youth? it made me sad to think of all the people filling in that questionaire saying things like 'youth are the future' and similar feelgood soundbites. youth are not the future. the youthful are the future. all around me i can see teenagers, twentysomethings, who have mentalities better suited to those many decades younger. this is a highly specialised form of prejudice - agism, believe it or not. the belief that after 30, or 40, you are past it, of no use, boring. the type of youth tig is so desperately trying to define is youthfulness itself - that quality only universally possessed for the first few years of our lives. only a few retain this characteristic - youthful energy, joy, openmindedness, and the gift to see everything as new. some lose this gift so early it's a tragedy. do not pin 'youth' down. let it be as careless and beautiful in contradictions as the people it inhabits. someone asked me recently to describe myself, purely in adjectives. i couldn't possibly do it. for every positive or negative aspect of my personality i identified, its opposite within me reminded me of its existence. generalisation will be our downfall]]> Sun, 05 Jan 2003 12:19:00 EST http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/7206 #oh...wouldn't it be luvverly# http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/7173 he hasn't told his family this time, which sucks, but it's the only way we can go about it at the moment. we're both a bit freaked out, to be honest, me because he's old and wise and experienced and him because everybody automatically thinks he's a paedophile + he (probably quite rightly) thinks he'll have an unfair influence on my life
problems, problems, but hey i'm quite happy
went on a big cd buying + illegally pirating spree -
radio 4 - gotham
mr scruff - trouser jazz
aim - hinterland (who incidentally comes from my little backwater of a town... hurrah!)
doves - the last broadcast
velvet underground + nico (which kicks ASS)
mos def - black on both sides
cash - johnny cash
fugazi - 13 songs
the music
pixies - surfer rosa
elvis - #1 (#caught in a trap...#)
and 10 more beauties are on their way. currently desired:
the liars
yeah yeah yeahs (not out yet, goddammit)
otis reading
miles davis, thelonious monk etc
dj shadow + the cut chemist
sorry to bore you with huge lists of music but i LOVE IT so much + it gives me a kick to get new stuff. jeez, who needs heroin?
i have this craving for a typewriter because all this maths and phsics, all these numbers, make me want to write and write endless crap (as you can tell) and rebel against their neatness, those neverending loops of logic and sequences, stretching away for ever and ever... but i must admit the most poetice thing i've discovered so far in sixth form is the concept of a superconductor. i danced round telling people about it all day. 'guess what? guess what i learned! INFINITE conductance! do you get that? INFINITE!!!!! hahahahahaha!!!'
oh my god i'm turning into one of those people off university challenge who laugh at things no normal human being understands... like 'snarf snarf!!! oh yes! i see now... the answer must be root two! how elementary...'
i really want to go hostelling in the lakes again, but thius summer me and my mate plan to go to amsterdam. arrrgghhh but i want to trek across hills and dales, skipping lightly through forests, on a timeless quest against evil (too much lord of the rings, i'm afraid)
ok sum up of year 2002 -
best lyric i heard - 'you are the son of incestuous un-ion'
best book read - midnight's children
best bit - 'mum! dad! boyfriend!' 'ok... how old?' 'er... 28'
worst bit - thinking i was going to die on the top of some bog-infested endless mountaintop
achievement of year - gotta be kicking ass in my gcses against all expectations. oh no, i lie, it was performing a meagre and pathetic but nevertheless AMAZING breakdancing move someone taught me
regrets? - no! ok maybe the fatal maths decision
money earned - lots
money spent - MORE. mostly at affleck's palace, manchester

happy new year]]> Fri, 03 Jan 2003 06:47:00 EST http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/7173 deep breathing http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/6434
i, both unfortunately and fortunately, depending on your point of view, am 16. i met someone who is 28. i know how people usually view relationships of this sort and will entirely forgive you if you react badly to the age gap between us... however, we got to know each other because it was unavoidable and could not escape from the mutual attraction we felt for each other although we both tried (honestly. ok, so he tried. i wasn't bothered. so sue me). but... his family are unusually close and he told them about me (my family weren't too bothered as they saw how happy i was), and his sister went ballistic, so we are no longer together and have talked about the situation til the cows come home, but it does no good as what can you do about a situation like that? i see entirely where his family is coming from. i would have felt the same if only presented with numbers. but it doesn't mean i have to like it.

i have learnt a lot from this experience -
it's not often you meet someone who makes you happy so don't let them go
the worst they can do is shoot you
and someone somewhere is always going to disagree with you

the rest of my life is pretty damn great at the moment - i'll update again later just for your entertainment but i'm sleepy so god bless
]]> Tue, 22 Oct 2002 17:28:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/6434 note to not_neo http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/6421 i am NOT underage
if you like, i'll take the time to tell you why you are utterly wrong
xx]]> Mon, 21 Oct 2002 17:19:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/6421 i lurve my tv http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4618
well, i'm a boring boring person... so i don't really have much to say... my tv's presence has drained my brain of all constructive thoughts...



i *must* stop reading terry pratchett cos all i ever do is read the same books over and over again. i try and read anything slightly more difficult and my brain shuts down. i'm one of those really sad people that has every single book, all the maps, 'the science of the discworld', the guidebook, the portfolio, and the quizbook. and i wonder why i have no life. ]]> Fri, 21 Jun 2002 09:30:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4618 bring on the good times http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4598
i am sad for some people, though... a lad in my class called sam chapman is leaving to go to sixth form in scotland, and we've been in the same class for 9 years... we may not have always talked every day but when we do he makes me laugh and i love him a lot. i guess this is the the time to move on

v nervous... we gotta beat brazil... c'mon, lads

*bites nails*

i bought fair trade coffee so it's ok if i drink it, right?
*laughs nervously*]]> Thu, 20 Jun 2002 12:05:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4598 yourteetharelikethestars http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4557 if you can talk, you can sing

my life is one big bad hair day

...the coffee has left my system... *mutters* i don't need coffee, i don't need coffee...

(i do not know what it is about you that closes and opens;
only something in me understands the voice of your eyes
is deeper than all roses) nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands.

~e.e.cummings~

if you are bilingual, do you think in both languages?

what does qed mean?

the most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious

~some guy called einstein~

i'm sorry, all those quotes that point out the world is beautiful and everyone is unique usually make me want to vomit, because we're alive, right? we know. but sometimes your head is empty and the words of others that fill it are comforting

our deepest fear
is not that we are inadequate.
our deepest fear
is that we are powerful beyond measure.
it is our light, not our darkness,
that most frightens us.
we ask ourselves,
'who am i to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?'
actually, who are you not to be?
you are a child of god.
your playing small doesn't
serve the world.
there is nothing enlightend
about shrinking so that other people
won't feel insecure around you.
we were born to make manifest the
glory of god that is within us.
it's not just in some of us;
it's in everyone.
and as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
as we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

~nelson mandela~

nelson is the man
]]> Tue, 18 Jun 2002 16:06:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4557 mmm caffeine http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4549 anyway, i somehow managed to get to school and flunk my way through the exam.
now, i can feel the tension between me and the percalator whenever i enter the kitchen... i feel like a heroin addict whose dealer is holding out on them - i don't wanna get angry with it, because then it would break again and there would be NO MORE COFFEE, so i'm just trying to be really nice, and it's all like 'i'm so great you need me for coffee'

hah! i know! i'll cheat and buy another one. all's fair in love and coffee]]> Tue, 18 Jun 2002 06:37:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4549 lifted http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4535 Mon, 17 Jun 2002 10:50:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4535 http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4534 but now lucy picks them.
she cannot know that she is mimicking her dead brother,
and she merrily shows me what she's found
watched by her father, who lives with 'the angels in God's heaven'


even though the water washed their lives away
it cannot dissolve our memories
and lucy tells me adam likes the simpsons but he's dead
and can i sing her a song about angels?
]]> Mon, 17 Jun 2002 07:45:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4534 hunga-bunga http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4519 go go and get it
the book was instrumental in my careful avoidance of revision today
i'm going to regret that on results day

it's quite sad that i'll probably never study languages again... i wanted to do latin at a level but the girl's school doesn't offer it as an option while the boy's does... ooh, that's unfair
maybe i'll study urdu when i'm older. one day it might be useful. i'll learn urdu, harrass someone until they teach me how to play the tabla, and scoot off to asia
will i encounter trouble if i travel alone extensively because i'm female? has anyone got advice for me on this? i'd appreciate it

and if anyone knows any italian curses, please please share them! it sounds so impressive to curse in italian. and of course nobody would understand

only two more exams to go

after the last exam, i'm going to run manically all the way out of school whooping and waving my arms in the air
planning it ruins the spontaneity, i guess, but what the hey it's gonna happen

i'm working on two whoops; only one will be used on the day
whoop 1: wooooaaaaiiiiihahahahaha
whoop 2: mainly consists of manic laughter
whaddya think?






]]> Sun, 16 Jun 2002 12:53:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4519 useless http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4512




yeah! i'm a wilderbeast, dammit!

tell me something truthful
and i'll give you all that's true

]]> Sun, 16 Jun 2002 05:55:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4512 rhythm http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4503
BOOM-chicka-wolla
WOOM-chicka-chicka
BANG-slap-*bing*
hooma-hing-wop
BANG!
chicka-ticka
BOOM-ticktick-hey
BANG-chickchick-hey
one-and-two-and
*big loud boom*

if you say it really fast as it's written you kinda get the picture. cr-r-r-razy, huh? maybe a pict-sie is tapdancing on my brain.

3-0! come on my sons do it for england

must remember to buy more fair trade stuff - unfortunately you can only get fairly traded coffee and chocolate round here but it's better than nothing

i'm really nervous cos a piece i composed is being sung in carlisle cathedral in july. it's part of a competition - there are six anthems being performed in all and there are four cash prizes. if i win anything it's going to go towards a guitar because i've always wanted to learn. oh yes, gee-tar it is.






]]> Sat, 15 Jun 2002 16:09:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4503 same ol' same ol' http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4501

Find your emotion!





Who are YOU most like?







You are 20% evil! [?]


You're pretty non-evil. You're a little bit off of being all good, but you tend to still be orderly and peaceful. You aren't the bad person at all...for the most part.



How Gay Are YOU? [?]


Which Kiss are You?

Which Kiss Are You?



i had a quiz fest... *shame*

only 2 more gcses to go
skilfully avoided revision today. heh heh.

outside of a dog, books are a man's best friend.
inside of a dog, it's too dark to read - groucho marx

i love groucho marx. i might grow a moustache to be just like him. *waggles eyebrows*



]]> Sat, 15 Jun 2002 13:59:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4501 ?no-one knows? http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4488 one day i will melt this computer down and construct something useful out of it. it makes me want to bash things (oh, for a faster connection...)
exams almost over. got told off today for continuing to write after they said to stop - hee hee.
the golden jubilee was one big scam - it made me feel all patriotic and benevolent towards queenie. i feel robbed of my socialist values.
dear queen,
you owe me one long-standing principle.
thank you.
sarah.
but prince william is rather gorgeous. no! stop! will... not... lust... after... royalty...
feel sleepy.
night.
]]> Fri, 14 Jun 2002 17:41:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4488 surprise! http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4483 because it is only ever
one constant snippet of time unending
i blink
and the world is created anew before me.
every fraction of a second
the universe
is destroyed
recreated
and blooms like a flower
in the midst of raging flames
blink]]> Fri, 14 Jun 2002 01:14:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4483 *meh* http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4477 my brother said something strange to me the other day - 'well, i suppose you don't have much to talk about when you're young'. by this he meant me and my friends, and it puzzles me while being a completely straightforward comment. does it mean at some time during the next three years wisdom will suddenly descend on me like light from heaven? cool... instant wisdom...
i haven't had a relationship with a girl yet. can you know you are bisexual before having experiences on both sides? i think so.
i read something true a while ago -
the mind is its own place, and in itself
can make a Heaven of Hell, a Hell of Heaven.
or something like that.
apparently the government is proposing to put asylum seekers in detention centres in the country. as someone who lives in the country, this annoyed me greatly because they don't think that anyone worth talking about lives outside cities, and so asylum seekers will be out of sight and out of mind. plus they will all be lumped in together without a real chance to integrate into english culture or learn the language properly.
i wish i could overthrow the government and initiate a real democracy]]> Thu, 13 Jun 2002 12:09:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4477 cry http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4475
alan paton]]> Thu, 13 Jun 2002 06:57:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4475 revision blows goats http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4474 it's not long before i'm FREE! free of this awful awful school with its tyrannical witch of a headmistress. soon i'll be going to lancaster sixth form to meet the golden haired adonis (or aphrodite) of my dreams... well, there's always hope.

arise, awake, or lie for ever fallen]]> Thu, 13 Jun 2002 06:20:00 EDT http://ariel.tigblog.org/post/4474